Here I Am, Doing Everything I Can

I moved by the way. To Green Bay, Wisconsin. With my friend Judy. It's going well, though I still kinda miss home.

I miss walking across the driveway to my grandparents house. Watching Everybody Loves Raymond and being offered whatever they made to eat, no matter how recently I ate or how soon I was going to. I miss knowing where everything was. I miss going to the casino when there was nothing to do and bothering the barstaff that I used to work with.

There's none of that here yet.

Yet.

I was originally super frustrated with the situation that landed me here. I didn't wanna move at first. Those that know the situation know the situation and that's what matters. To be completely transparent, it still kinda pisses me off, but people have free will, and I can't get in the way of that. If you wanna use your free will to make dumb decisions then so be it. Like Mr Norcross used to say (if anybody reading this knows him): "If you're gonna be dumb, you better be tough"

Anyway, not nearly as heated as I was.

And like I said three paragraphs up, yet. I'll end up getting comfortable down here. Eventually one of these jobs will get back to me, and I'll finally be back to saving my money instead of spending my savings.

This will be good. It has to be. I think if I tell myself that enough times it'll happen. Manifesting success and happiness.

I decided to restart my Straight Bangers with a Z playlist. I hadn't updated it in a while, so I just completely emptied it and I'm slowly rebuilding.

Also, apparently I had never added "The Kill (Bury Me)" by 30 Seconds to Mars to my library. Rediscovered that gem, and WOW. If there's one song in my library that I would feel comfortable calling a straight banger, it's probably that one.

I'm not sure that this post is going to be anything with substance. It's just kinda a filler episode in the reality show that is my life.

Serving as an update on my life. Getting myself back into the rhythm of writing consistently.

I have a thing or two written out on Docs, but I would feel kinda cheap using those. I feel like you guys want the stuff that's off the top of my dome, not anything thats pre written

You want the home cooked meal, not the microwave dinner. I've got both, but one takes a second longer to prepare, so. Up to you I guess.

Side note: literally everything is so expensive and for no good reason. You're telling me a shower curtain is reasonably priced at $20? Without even giving you a liner or the little hooks or a frickin shower mat or somethin? Ridiculous. It's a square. Half of them are mostly plastic. There's no way.

And mattresses? Good lord in heaven, I almost sold a kidney to afford a decent nights sleep. Although, when I DID purchase one, the total was almost perfect. It was all the right numbers but in the wrong order, so that was upsetting.

For those curious, it was 469.20.

So close and yet so far.

Here's another thing that makes me happy about this move, because I'm always looking for reasons for this to have been worth it (and maybe this makes me a sucky person but whatever):

I had plans a few years back to move with some friends. To Milwaukee, or Chicago, or legit anywhere besides the U.P., specifically the Esky area.

And that fell through for a variety of reasons, not all of them good ones, and I'm comfortable saying that my hands aren't spotless in that whole mess because I'm an adult. Am I fully to blame? Hell no. But I am owning up to what I did contribute, one way or another. Enough about that.

The point is, I moved to a city. I made it out. I've given myself options. Annnnnd they're all still stuck there for no good reason.

Like I said, that might be kinda a dick stance to take, but here we are nonetheless.

Anyway, I think that's all I've got for you guys tonight. Sorry if you all expected more. There will be, just not right now. I've got nothing but time now. I think I'm gonna go play the guitar. Work on that for a little bit. Get back into that groove as well.

Have a good night my dudes.

Dominic Romeo

09:24 PM CST

08/07/2023