I Assure You, The Sun Will Shine On Us Again

No, I'm not going anywhere, don't worry. At least in terms of my writing.

I promised you guys I'd throw a post together about the transition out of Food and Beverage onto bigger and better things. And then night shift hit, and my entire schedule got flipped upside down. I thought I was always tired before man, but yeeeeesh. It's been tough. That being said, I think I'm getting adjusted, so that's good.

I miss F&B. Really, I do. Not enough to go back, but I do. I love the friends I made over the course of my time there, both customer and co-worker alike. I'd make a list but I..... think that'd take up a little too much room.

I miss the cooks, yelling out orders to their crew from the window. And when they'd yell "Calling Breakfast!!!". And how I had to practically do a squat each time I wanted to look into the kitchen cause the window was nooooooot designed for anybody over like, 5'5". I miss giving the leads and Sous Chef a hard time. Trust me. I did.

I miss the regulars that would come in all the time. I know their orders, and some of them knew I did. The others would just act surprised each and every time. I don't know which was more precious. Some wanted their Sloppy Joe with no chips, their dinner roll boxed separately, sour cream with the mini tacos they'd order all the time, every meal served on a plate instead of in a basket, peanut butter and crackers with their salad, the list goes on. I knew their names, and they knew mine. I miss each one of them.

I miss hiding little snippets of things, sticky notes, hot sauce packets, funny tickets, and all sorts of nonsensical items in the lidded soup cup above the window. Good times, good times..

I think that's everything honestly. As far as what I'll miss. My coworkers all already know how much I love and appreciate them. Well, the coworkers that I love and appreciate know at least. Can't speak for everybody, nor has everybody been fun to work with, soooooo....

As far as my new job goes, I'm still not entirely sure what I can and can't say about it, so I'm gonna wait on that.. The second you put anything on the internet, it's on there forever, so that's a mistake I'm not looking to make. Just know that I'm enjoying it, that all is well, and that I'm learning soooo much, which I also enjoy.

I'm having to re-examine a lot of current and past relationships in order to lighten my mental load. Even before I was working full-time, I had a lot on my plate, so a cut in time across the board means some things can't, or won't, make the cut. And it sucks, but it's part of growing up and moving on and all that.

Also, I'm trying to be more in touch with my feelings. I sure as heck would love to understand all of what happens in my brain, and in my heart, and wherever else. And to be able to show it and not feel any weaker for it. Perks of being a man, you know? *ba dum tsss*

I'm also kinda indecisive. And by kinda, I mean very. It's so bad. I'll stare at a menu for twenty minutes straight and still end up in the same place I was before.

Okay, done roasting myself for right now. The point was, this change in my surroundings has reminded me that as my life progresses and changes, so do I. There's no way to grow in life without letting go of the things associated with the past. There are always memories, and those people will always be there. However, if your focus is your future, you need to surround yourself with those that will be there in that future of yours.

I don't know if that makes much sense, cause I'm really tired, but here's to hoping that it does.

Alrighty, I think that's all the fuel I got for right now.

Thanks for listening friends <3

-Dominic Romeo

09/21/2021

11:10 PM EST