Spare Me What You’re Thinking, Tell Me a Lie

Frick.

Alright well 2021 could’ve started a little less awkward like.

I’m gonna pull a usual Dominic and avoid the main details of a story while still technically bringing it up through an analogy/parable.

Every single movie, ever, or tv show, has that one guy that’s like, “i LiEd To PrOtEcT yOu”, and I would always hear that and be like, no screw you that’s not a thing, tell the truth to avoid getting hurt. Well then something funny happened, and by funny I mean, well, not necessarily all that funny. Ironic maybe? I don’t really know what word I’m looking for. Probably ironic.

Anyway, so somebody asked me about something, and I was in a situation where I couldn’t NOT tell them, so you can imagine how stressed out of my mind I am. I hesitate, they for sure know the truth at this point, and I know they know the truth, but for whatever reason, I can’t bring myself to acknowledge it. Which sucks. I’m not entirely sure if they wanted the truth or not, because they’ve asked this question before, and they didn’t like the answer the first time. That’s as far into the actual details as I’m going.

Now for analogy time. Or for deep thought time, or whatever you want to call it. The thought behind my actions, or the motive or the reasoning.

I didn’t want to tell the truth, the answer, the correct one, the one we were all thinking, the one that was expected, because I couldn’t handle the way people might handle the truth. I didn’t want to be judged, shot down, criticized, or otherwise be looked down on for my truth, or my opinion, or my feelings. I’ve thrown myself against this wall before, and it didn’t move. The wall didn’t budge. I got hurt. Not literally, but it hurt a little. So you can imagine my doubts, my concern, my hesitance to be running full steam ahead towards this same, otherwise unchanged wall.

Now that I’ve created an uncomfortable energy in the studio as the youngins say, I’ll change it quick so as to end in a happy note.

We’ve all got our own wall we’re trying to break through. Maybe it’s a promotion you just can’t seem to get, or maybe it’s a child you and spouse want to have, but haven’t had any luck getting, or maybe it’s a good grade for your classes, or an improved relationship with you and your significant other. You know what‘s gonna get you through that wall? Not a crappy attitude. Not a lack of confidence. Not a lie, even if I’ve relied on those to solve my problems in this area a couple times. None of that will help break through. Truth. Confidence. Hard Work. Faith in yourself, and if you believe, faith in God.

Ingredients vary according to recipe. Like, you’ll probably need different things to get a promotion than to win your girl over, or to up your chances of pregnancy or whatever. But it’s all (relatively) the same stuff.

Thats all.

And yeah, that’s a one direction lyric.

And hey, if the person I hope is reading this is reading this, talk to me.

I can’t afford to lose you again.

-Dominic Romeo

2:09 PM Est

01/01/2021