Stop the Ride, Please, I'd Like to Get Off

I was going to go kinda political on this one, but I realized that you can get that legitimately on any other platform, so I called it off. This one is simply going to be about my personal life, and recent events. Maybe even a deep thought. Or a Friend Shout-Out. Or a couple. I don't know.

I'm tired. Not just physically. Mentally. I've been working at the Casino for quite a while with no real break. I think the last time I had more than a weekend off was Marny's wedding in October. Okay well that's a lie, because of the shutdown, but still. I'm just saying it's been quite a little bit. Not only that, but mentally, there's been so much. Trying to handle a global disease properly, trying to deal with equality in the US, etc.

My future.

Luckily Covid bought me some time to try and figure out what happens past this point. Nothing yet though. I have a couple answers to give people whenever they ask. If it's somebody vital to my life, I tend to try and phrase it differently each time so it sounds like there's been development, even when there hasn't been.

It's been rough man. I'd love to just go to college or whatever, get a degree in just about anything, you know. Advance myself. Scholarship money went out the window when I left GLAA. Graduating from a school for introverts, misfits, and drop-outs has its perks. Coming from academy into that environment made me feel good about my prior education. Downside is, that option's usually for people that just want their diploma, so it doesn't open lots of doors.

Sorry if this post ends up being depressing. Or pessimistic or whatever.

I'll tie the Friend Shout-Outs into the topic of friends. I have friends, so don't jump to conclusions. It's just that I have a lot of the same friends. Not a bad thing by itself. The friends I actively talk to currently have always been there for me. You know who you are. It's just that I miss a loooooooooot of people. I don't miss people a lot, but I do miss a lot of them. Get it? I hate to tie GLAA back into this, but it was a fairly large part of my life. There was on average a total of like, two hundred students per year? I think? I was there for two years, so with the seniors leaving and new freshmen coming in, I probably met like 300-400 people in my time there, not including staff or families of students. There isn't a lot of them that keep in touch. To be fair, I'm not exactly throwing myself at them either, but I expected there to be something. Anything.

Anyway, that's a long winded way of saying I'd write Friend Shout-Outs more often if there were more to write. Right now there's not. So....... sorry I guess.

Oh this is fun. While trapped in my dorm room a while ago, I drew a little world in a notebook. Fast forward to present. I carved out the little world pretty accurately and pretty close to what I intended originally. Fast forward to.... wait. Just stay here, now... Anyway, in my free time, I've been writing a story that takes place in that world. Hit me up if you're interested in hearing about it. It's definitely a nerd/fantasy thing, so be prepared if you do. It's a very rough idea.

Moral of this story is, there's a big conflict going on. I love where I'm at currently. I hate it at the same time, because nothing is happening. I know I should leave, but at the same time, I can't imagine my life being any different. I can't imagine saying goodbye to everybody that I see everyday for the last time. I want my life to be so much more, but I don't want to lose what I have.

That's all.

I guess I just needed to vent, and really that's why I started this thing in the first place, so... If you didn't like it, then that sucks for you, cause there'll probably be a lot more. Sorry not sorry.

-Dominic Romeo

11:09 PM EST

07/11/2020