We Can't Wait to See What You Do Next

Hey.

Thanks for staying posted. I'm currently at my grandparent's house, using their wi-fi because ours has been down for a bit. I would have resorted to this option earlier, but we were doing some traveling and stuff, so.... yeah.

So, I've been thinking a lot about celebrities that have passed. I thought of Carrie Fisher when I saw Star Wars in theaters recently. I thought of Avicii when my sister listened to his music the other day. I thought of Juice WRLD when Em dropped his surprise album. I've thought of a lot of people.

At a concert I was at recently, during the last song that was played, "The Finale", there were some lyrics that went a little like this:

"Can you wait a sec?

Let me catch my breath

I can't remember how I got here

They wanted heaven from me

I gave 'em hell

Now they want something bigger

I'm overwhelmed

I think it's time to go now

I think my curtain's falling

Just don't forget about me

When you get out of college

If it's my final album

And if I am forgotten

I hope I made you smile

That's all I ever wanted

Congratulations on your bit of success

Welcome to the Neotheater

We can't wait to see what you do next"

Anyway, so standing in the crowd that part almost made me cry, which is big, considering I don't really cry for a whole lot.

No, that's not an example of toxic masculinity, that's just who I am as a person, so cut it out. -.-

I just related to those lyrics on a much deeper level than even I thought prior to that moment. Let me explain.

DISCLAIMER: JUST BECAUSE I'M WRITING ABOUT DEATH DOESN'T MEAN I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF. I know some people were under that impression once or twice, and I don't need that happening again. Good grief.

Anyway, life could end at any moment for any one of us, and I don't really like that at all. Not one bit, no-sir-ee. I want to:

A) Have 'given them hell' by the end. Give them more than they thought I could at any point. Exceed expectations in any realm of my life. Blow em all away. Shock and Astound.

Or

B) Have made a positive impact by the time my curtain falls, or at least be worth being remembered by somebody at any point in their life.

The problem with 'A' is that people are never satisfied with anything you do. "Now they want something bigger, I'm overwhelmed". No matter what you do, people are going to expect bigger the next time, and it becomes a crushing weight to carry around with you. You need a second to calm down, take a breather, and regain composure. It becomes a blur, and you can't focus on where YOU want to be, or what it took to get you to this point.

People are always going "So what now? What are you doing after graduation? What are you doing for your new job? What are you doing when you get a car? What now? What about your future? What about college? Got an eye on girls for your future? Getting married?" That's all high school is. High school is just people stressing themselves out of their mind for four years until they're relocated to a different stress-center.

The thing about 'B' is that, that IS all I've ever wanted. I've only ever wanted to make people smile. Make a positive impact. I changed my mind about what I typed earlier. I don't even care if you remember me in the end. As long as I made a positive impact in somebodies life, it will have been worth it, and I want to be around to see what you do with those positive experiences I've dished out. I can't wait to see what you do with it.

I can't wait to see what you do next.

-Dominic Romeo

1/19/2020

9:42 PM EST